Thank you note

Thank you ...
for being you
and doing all the you do.
for helping me through..
 it all ...
when I stand
... and when I
fall...
and you rise again...
to answer my call
when i need you
and when i don't
I won't ...
soon forget
the amazing ways that you loved me....

Jaded

jaded
inundated
with feelings that I feel
I hate it
when overwhelmed with
self doubt
being told that a liar am I
called a coward
its about
...time
that I left that behind
you think that I was bad
you have no idea...
for bad is ...
atrocities and lies
cowardice?
yes fear I fear
despise despicable
hatred and vice
death... I surmise
and yes,
when given the choice
I voiced to you that you were my one
showed ,  TRIED in TRUTH
I tried all the same
driving us insane
perfect, my love far from
but you must think I'm dumb
to believe your words
I'm at a loss
for ...
what verity speaks louder than
and for what you believe...
for I conceive
ideas...
theories...
far beyond...
your capabilities
fear this:
for I am a dreamer of dreams
my nightmares would make you scream
know in truth who I am
my generosity
I overextend
to a fault
to you
now...
in that vault
lays a heart that was once a jewel
now petrified and then broken
shattered into pieces
and fully open
I am a fool
now I work on this puzzle
putting those pieces back
together because
one day I hope to love again

ladders we climb

Wishlist

I would like to
heal myself ...
and others
create and love
like a mother
does her child
I would like
for my notions
to cross oceans
like particles
and grains of sand
hit land
waves unfurl
spiraling vortices
and
mathematically...
memetically crash
create commotion
and disband
status quo
through loga-algorhythmic
growth

I wish...
for my ego
to shatter
physical anti-matter knot
what you were taught
seek inside
answers
forgot-ten in time
I wish...
to enlighten my soul
find love evolve
seed of life, grow
show the world
what we are all
nothing but..
a motion in space
based on an attraction
to each other
displacing
momentum
spirals
creating
equilibrium
like orbit
to orbital
in this formation
we all orbit
all
even energy
it seems

I wish...
for us to see
our divinity
realize
potential
incredible
dreams
move
forward
positively
charged
and all
be all
one
together
large and clever is this
infinite universe
in its paradigm-paradox
pandora's box
we made
to it-
enlightenment
enslaved
if we could
only see
self similarity
we would realize
a universe
each within contained
membrane of the same
are we
as the earth orbits
the sun
in its own harmonic game

I wish...
for my life to live
for me to thrive
and my love to give
I wish..
for us to see
it is music
that are we
the same are
the stars
as they oscillate
and revolve
emulate
and collide
our
photonic path.
spiral graphs

I wish...
to bring understanding and peace
for compassion
at least
for us to know
that there is...
a way to explain
how it all correlates
as we revolve
evolve
to know
that the pattern
from light to matter...

..is the same

From Atoms to Solar Systems

the path of a planet around a star is an ellipse... in 3d, but what is really happening is that in 4d, it is a spiral because space is constantly expanding

people have made the "planet around the sun is like an electron around the nucleus" analogy

right, but the notion is flawed...

because we are not taking into account our inability to scale time as well as space

back in the days of bohr and planck, the quantization argument was what broke down that analogy

what we see as an electron probability function is what we would see if we charted a planet around a star for millions or billions of years

that's a deep statement, and has been considered, and is not what is currently believed

I will do some research on whether the models have actually tried to use a scale in time as well as size.. and why these notions were discarded.

but it had been one of the working theories

I do realize that the idea is not one that is absolutely new... it is only my gut feeling as to what is really going on

at least the analogy of orbits and orbitals

however, even if not directly associated in mathematical model, an orbital is still a spiral as it follows cycle around a proton (even if semi-stochastic) ...

there might be other force factors at play at different scales

the deep idea you're connecting with is the link between chaos and probability

how cyclical strange attractor type behavior connects with probability distributions

btw: I really appreciate that you are challenging me - I, however, was on my way out to have dinner

thanks friend... really, thank you... talk soon

will talk soon

Today

In the end -- even if the models for the atomic orbitals and the planetary orbitals are not described by exactly the same mathematics - it is not the main point of what I am saying (although I would like to keep looking into that)... the essence of what I am saying is that the wave as we know (a sine wave) is not a complete picture of what is happening. They ARE moving in a sine wave. But they are not only doing it on the y axis, but also on the x axis... which yields a spiral. And if we look at the cross section of the spiral, we see the sine wave... thus it does not invalidate our current findings, but merely amends our view of how it is that the photons (or particles) are travelling.

the analogy between the two scales is only to illustrate that there are spirals happening on both of these levels which in turn leads me to conclude that everything moves like this... which then leads us to an understanding that light, energy, sound are also moving in spiral form